This is the revelation that is shaping my life today….what motivates me to seek an audience with God?
Mark 5:21-23 TPT
 After Jesus returned from across the lake, a huge crowd of people quickly gathered around him on the shoreline.  Just then, a man saw that it was Jesus, so he pushed through the crowd and threw himself down at his feet. His name was Jairus, a Jewish official who was in charge of the synagogue.  He pleaded with Jesus, saying over and over, “Please come with me! My little daughter is at the point of death, and she’s only twelve years old! Come and lay your hands on her and heal her and she will live!”
What makes us throw ourselves on Gods mercy, at His feet, to seek His presence? Unfortunately desperation is often the answer. God wants to share the everydayness of everyday with us, but our response often is “I’ll catch you when I’m in desperate need of you.” We will go to extremes, forget our position and push our way into Gods presence when desperation kicks in – “Please come with me!”
Our driveness for His presence is often out of need for intervention not desire for intimacy. “My little daughter is at the point of death,” has me pushing in for an audience. We want what Jesus can give not who Jesus is. It’s his good stuff we need not his love. I have no problem coming to God when desperate times motivate us, I have no problem seeking him for what He can do and bring in a situation – it’s when this is the only time I come that my motivation is obvious and somewhat disappointing. Interestingly, God does not get disappointed and respond how I might, He goes with the man and heals his daughter.
The wrestle for me is to live with a desire and a passion to push into His presence because He invites me too. To come without an agenda of desperation, other than I desperately want to share my moments with you. Must my life become so full that desperation and intervention are the only motivators for my seeking out God? Have I lost the awe of his presence in every crevice of creation? Have I lost the beauty of His presence in the intimacy of a conversation? Have I lost the reverence of His Godship in the familiarity of his fatherhood? Am I really that important that I have so much to do, am I really that caught up in the trinkets of this consumer world, am I really so lost in the looking for life, that I have lost my perspective and priority of my God?
Stop. Slow. Remember. Reflect on my life and the priority of His presence. I will always come pushing into his presence with my hands full of desperate need to receive from Him what I need, but I will come running into His presence with a desperation to share my life, to glimpse His beauty, to be near. Like a child running to the door when the car pulls up in the driveway, may I never loose the joy, the wonder, the excitement of my Gods presence.
Thank you that you never turn me away regardless of my motives. Thank you that you always invite me in to a deeper revelation in your presence. Thank you that your patience and love outlasts my ridiculous pursuits that ignore you. Thank you that you position yourself as always available, always present to be present. I am blessed to have a standing invitation into the presence of my God.
When do I seek out God? What are the motivators that drive me to push into His presence?
Is there a rhythm of intimacy with God in my life? What does, could that look like?