Here is the revelation that is shaping my life today – circumstances are random, feelings are responsive, trust is shaping.
Psalm 143:7-8 TPT
 Lord, come quickly and answer me, for my depression deepens and I’m about to give up. Don’t leave me now or I’ll die!  Let the dawning day bring me revelation of your tender, unfailing love. Give me light for my path and teach me, for I trust in you.
Life situations come randomly, uninvited, and powerfully. The universe is mysterious and unfair, it’s interconnected nature of free will beings means that I can never protect or immune myself from outside forces entering the orbit of my life. I have control over myself, but I can not control, nor can God control, the situations, my choices and the overflow of others from impacting my life.
So we can find ourselves as David does, feeling deepening depression and desperation as the situations of his life close in at haste threatening his very life. We can always bring our emotive, feelings response to God, our desperation is always welcome, including what we are projecting from the presenting situations. David faces his feelings and calls out for God, not in anger, not in confused despair. He calls out for the presence of God, the revelation of his love, and His direction. His calling out is based on “for I trust in you.”
We can know that God is present, we can know that we are loved, we can know that He is for us and has always prepared a way for us, but it is our choice to position ourselves to receive, to walk in the who and what God is for us. God does not change but our stance can change our experience of Him. The declaration of trust is a position I take to encounter and receive all that God is. Trust declares to my situations, I am not alone here, I am not powerless here. My feelings inform me of the stories that are circling my life seducing me into their shaping moulds, trust is my declaration that I can move into the presence of God in my circumstances, and shape them from His promises and presence. Feelings are not reality, they are my warning system for approaching stories. Trust reshapes what feelings warn is approaching.
I will be aware of the communication of my feelings, I will take hold of and bring before God the approaching stories my feelings warn me to. There is nothing in me that I will keep from sharing with God. But I will not stop here, I will reshape myself in my circumstances by the declaration of trust, the declaration of my God’s presence and love. In the truth of these declarations my circumstances submit and are reshaped by the new shaping influence of the presence of God.
Thank you that you allow all of me to be truely me in your presence. I can share my feelings and declare my faith. These two are not opposed, feelings informs me as to what trust must declare for me. Thank you that circumstances are not the final shaping voice for my life, they are but the stage of the story and glory of faith in you. To know and live from the shaping truth that I am never alone, I am always loved, and I have a tutor who will guide me – then bring on life in all its craziness and randomness. I am a blessed man.
What stories identified by my feelings need to be reshaped by my trust in God? What declarations do my trust in God need to make in this season of life?